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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 27, 2009 16:00:56 GMT -5
Dayana broke up with me today.
:/
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Post by Forch Desole on Jan 27, 2009 16:28:16 GMT -5
Oh damn. I'm sorry, Nuclear. You don't need her. You have us. Us and video games. And that's all a man needs.
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Post by Xx{Midnight}xX on Jan 27, 2009 21:38:18 GMT -5
As I'm sorry. How did it happen? (If you are willing to tell that is)
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 27, 2009 22:40:31 GMT -5
Yes, yes. I'll tell.
She had two reasons. She said it didn't feel the same anymore, and she kinda liked what we did more than me. If that last one makes sense.
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Post by Xx{Midnight}xX on Jan 28, 2009 0:09:59 GMT -5
It makes perfect sense. (At least she didn't lie to you on break up?) Bad as it is if someone is like that, that means you just move on I would suppose? I mean, the feelings are always going to be there, though I would think people who became close will always stay that way.
Also, what do you do with a break up? (As in do you avoid the person, try to stay friends... Ect.)
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 28, 2009 11:30:55 GMT -5
I avoided her for a short while, but then we got to talking again.
Somehow, it got to me kissing her this morning. :x
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Post by Xx{Midnight}xX on Jan 28, 2009 18:55:13 GMT -5
Oh wow.
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 28, 2009 21:36:35 GMT -5
I'm getting mixed messages here. This was in our notebook. "P.P.S. I do love you, I love you the same way. I always have. I just don't feel that we're well off being together."-Dayana
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 29, 2009 18:01:46 GMT -5
Epic long edit after this post.
Letting you know now.
Epic long edit: I think my random breakdowns will stop, seeing as this all makes sense to me now. No mixed messages. Just Dayana being as blunt and straightforward as she always tends to be. She wrote in about two or three pages in the notebook today. Read it exactly as she wrote it. By the way, there are some points where I can't really read her handwriting, so if you see a (...), you know what it means now.
"Ok, I'm not gonna tell you to not be sad, and not miss me, and not want to always be with me, but don't make me do anything I don't want to. I'm kinda rethinking that thing Lizzy told you about.
And I'm sorry if the truth hurts, but I don't want to be with you, I don't like being near you most of the time, and I don't want to see you like... 5 times a day. I know it hurts like a bitch, but I broke up with you for a reason, it's not just so we don't call each other by something other than just "friends", it's because I just WANT us to be friends. I know how things used to be, and how we used to act, and the things we used to do, and talk about. But that was how things were. They might go back to that, they might not. Things change. Things are constantly changing, and they're gonna continue to change. I wish they wouldn't, I wish things were the way they were years ago, when we actually had things to talk about and we wouldn't always get bored. But they're NOT.
I know you're a wonderful person, and I'm pretty sure I will never find anyone like you again in my life. But I guess we're just not "meant to be". I know it's cheesy, it's stupid, and unfair, and probably not gonna fix anything, but that's life. It sucks, but it's the way it is. If you really think about it, we've never been (...) happy with us. At least I wasn't.
I'm sorry it has to be like this, and I'm really sorry it hurts you, believe me, I am. But this is probably that thing I was scared that would happen the first two times you asked. And honestly, I hadn't done this sooner because I really didn't want to hurt you because hurting you seems like the worst thing to do to anyone in the world. But I figured I would rather have you sad for a while, than (...) and pretending that I'm happy when I'm really not.
Now the bell's gonna ring, so I have to go. I love you. Just don't forget that. -Dayana"
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Post by Xx{Midnight}xX on Jan 29, 2009 18:54:04 GMT -5
Ouch... Wow oh wow oh wow. I can't imagine how bad you must feel...
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 29, 2009 19:05:12 GMT -5
Quite the contrary, actually.
I was actually relieved when I read this for some reason. I guess it could be because I was so confused in fourth period, that I ended up breaking down literally out of nowhere. It explains a bit, and at one point, she subtly says that there's still some sort of chance.
Though I will admit the second paragraph was what hurt me.
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Post by Xx{Midnight}xX on Jan 29, 2009 19:39:06 GMT -5
Still, at least it didn't hurt more than if she never told you. That's a good thing.
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Post by Tater Tot on Jan 29, 2009 19:53:37 GMT -5
I know there's really nothing I can say that will comfort you, but I hope you are able to come to term with it soon, if you haven't already, and are able to move on with your life.
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Post by Forch Desole on Jan 29, 2009 20:30:48 GMT -5
She sounds like she has a brain. Friendship is stronger than a relationship. Once you jump through the threshold of love, you pretty much find nothing better to say but "I love you."
I only have one question. Who started the relationship?
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 29, 2009 20:49:43 GMT -5
Who started the relationship? I did.
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Post by redcomet on Jan 30, 2009 0:58:40 GMT -5
well sam, at least there's signs of intelligent life on this planet. Dayana being that sign of course and not breaking up with you a mean and hurtful way that leaves scars. emotional scars run deep man, but I'm sure you know that by now.
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Post by Xx{Midnight}xX on Jan 30, 2009 1:37:57 GMT -5
Scars are only scars if you let them be.
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Post by Forch Desole on Jan 30, 2009 7:57:02 GMT -5
Scars are only scars if you're fluent in English.
They were cicatrices back in the good ol' days.
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Post by Xx{Midnight}xX on Jan 30, 2009 14:43:34 GMT -5
I lost the game Forch you know what I meant.
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Jan 30, 2009 21:26:51 GMT -5
Forch, I think you were right.
"Dayana": –noun, plural -ties. 1. the quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness. 2. truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness. 3. freedom from deceit or fraud. "Dayana": Be honest with me "Dayana": About anything and everything armed penguins: Like what? "Dayana": Anything "Dayana": Everything you haven't told me "Dayana": Because you can't tell me you've never lied "Dayana": Because I would not have heard a bigger lie in my life "Dayana": And talk "Dayana": Spill "Dayana": So* not and armed penguins: What do you want me to say? "Dayana": Damn it allan! "Dayana": Just talk to me. Tell me anything. Tell me something you'd never think of telling me. Or something you hadn't wanted to tell me. Anything "Dayana": I want to talk to you the way I did when I fell in love with you. Not because of what it seems, not because I wanna be in love with you again, but because then was when we were stronger. When we talked. When I LIKED talking to you. I miss it allan. I miss it so much. armed penguins: You're saying my name. armed penguins: You never do that. "Dayana": I hate myself so much right now. I fucking hate it because I hate dwelling on the past and I hate feeling sad thinking of how everything turns to shit. And I HATE wanting things to be the way they used to. I hate it. I hate it I hate it. armed penguins: I have one question. "Dayana": What's that? armed penguins: How do you think it turned into shit? "Dayana": We never talk anymore.
Expect frequent/random edits.
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Feb 2, 2009 22:21:28 GMT -5
(Necessary double post.)
I'm giving up on her. I just don't know what to say to her anymore, at all. I really don't. And I know you have told me to move on. I want to, but it just isn't something that happens overnight.
armed penguins: Hi. "Dayana": You have the most wonderful timing armed penguins: Sarcasm? "Dayana": Sure armed penguins: So how was my timing oh so wonderful? "Dayana": I don't really.. Think I should tell you armed penguins: Why not? "Dayana": Because .. "Dayana": Just forget I ever said anything armed penguins: Fine. "Dayana": So hi armed penguins: Hi penguin. "Dayana": Hi armed penguins: How's life? "Dayana": ALLAN armed penguins: What? "Dayana": Good/yousuck armed penguins: Why? "Dayana": Because you make me feel bad about certain things.. "Dayana": Fjdknshweu3rh armed penguins: Which certain things are these? "Dayana": Nevermind armed penguins: Just tell me. armed penguins: You have me curious now. "Dayana": But... idk how exactly you're gonna react "Dayana": And I don't want you to be all... :/ armed penguins: What does it have to do with? "Dayana": Um.. "Dayana": Hellooo? armed penguins: Hi. "Dayana": Why silencio? armed penguins: I was waiting for you to say whatever it is it has to do with. armed penguins: Which you apparently still haven't. "Dayana": Oh "Dayana": Well I don't really know how to categorize it with saying it all armed penguins: Try to. armed penguins: Is it something good or something bad? "Dayana": I can't.. armed penguins: Why not? "Dayana": Well, it depends what side you're viewing it from armed penguins: What sides are there to look at it from? "Dayana": A side where its a kinda good thing, I guess, and a side where its not a thing to be thinking about at the time... armed penguins: How would it be a good thing? "Dayana": Idk how to say it without SAYING it. armed penguins: Then just say it. "Dayana": Idk if you're gonna get mad.. "Dayana": I don't want you mad... armed penguins: What could you possibly do or say that would get me mad at you? "Dayana": I haven't DONE anything "Dayana": Its more of a mental stage armed penguins: What is it? "Dayana": Are you sure? armed penguins: Yes. "Dayana": Super ultra sure? armed penguins: Now I'm getting the feeling that it's more of a bad thing. "Dayana": Its not really a bad thing, its just... heuwdhn idk armed penguins: Just say it. "Dayana": Idk how to explain it armed penguins: Don't explain it. armed penguins: Don't summarize it. armed penguins: Don't describe it. armed penguins: Just. Say it. "Dayana": I like this boy... armed penguins: Who? "Dayana": ...I don't wanna tell you "Dayana": And I don't think you know him "Dayana": Are you gonna say anything? armed penguins: I'm not sure. All I know is that hurt. "Dayana": Well, I warned you.. "Dayana": For a while
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Post by Forch Desole on Feb 2, 2009 22:46:08 GMT -5
Again,
I'm sorry but, she's fucking annoying.
"I... no. I shouldn't! Even though I'm hinting, I shouldn't! Oh no!" "Ooh... I like this guy... who I probably know NOTHING about..." I bet he's just cute. That's all. And I bet he's gay. Man, that'd be funny.
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Feb 2, 2009 22:49:51 GMT -5
Yay for irony.
Locking this.
I have my reasons.
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Post by Forch Desole on Feb 2, 2009 23:02:50 GMT -5
In after the lock.
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Post by Ephraim Desole on Feb 2, 2009 23:04:30 GMT -5
Oh, fuck. I forgot we can do that.
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